You know, everyone idolizes someone. It could be a cartoon character or a real life famous person. Eitherway, both unattainable because one is.. well not real.. use an eraser and he/she is gone. And the other, well.. what are the chances that you'll meet him/her and start dating and have babies and end up happily ever after.

ANYWAYS.. so the distant fangirlism/fanboyism starts. Let's talk about real life idols.

So you read about him/her on the internet and follow his/her every move and you look up pictures and safe them on your pc or send them to your iPod or mobile phone so that you can look at them whenever you feel like it. You start dreaming about him/her, that you are actually dating and married and have kids and live on the moon etc etc. But suddenly you see the news.. Your precious idol is dating whatshisface/whatsherface and you feel heartbroken. I know it seems silly that one would feel heartbroken because if you really think good about it, there's absolutely NO chance of you being with your precious idol like you intent too. But still, you can't avoid feeling heartbroken and hating the person he/she is with. Which is totally unfair to that person cuz it's not their fault that your idol has chosen that person over.. I don't know.. Zillions of fans?? And I know, if you are a true fan you should be happy for your idol whatever he/she does and whoever/whatever he/she dates.  I KNOW!! I am one of those fans who think that way.. but it's still hard @_@. But I do try to feel happy for my idol

Well the reason I wrote this is because I was bored and before I wrote this I was even more bored  and was looking up vid's about my idol and there I saw a disturbing title saying him and her are dating.. so I was like: WTF!? So my curiousity lead me to click on the vid and watch some stupid fancam screencap.. which was taken last year and that vid lead me to some other past stuff.. but it all appears to be a rumour ( or not.. I dunno )... my poor heart.. But after the first shock of seeing him with another chick my head just switches of to "whatever, as long as he is happy". I mean.. he's still mine in my dreams!

Point of this story... none whatsoever..